Its been literally a year now..

Well, this is awkward. I thought it was a great idea to make a blog, but reading all my old entries makes me cringe a little. I guess I used this as a way to cope or vent. I'm probably not going to come back to this account. So much has changed since the time of making it. TvT) It's incredible. Also, don't expect rps on Sudo, I quit using my dsi and rarely animate on occasions, so there's that. Anyway, later~

~crackerz33

Well... snikes.

So school just started for me and I've been struggling. The school part is easy. I have some friends who really, REALLY like me. They are constantly flirting begging for attention from me. I broke up with my boyfriend also.. I needed space. I feel so much freer, yet... I feel sadness. I felt so alone, but as the days go on the better life looks. The more I of a jerk I could see in my ex. It was wonderful. My cousins were comforting, my friends and family, but I don't really deserve it. I did bad things. Things I don't believe I can make up for. School and work have taken up most of my time now. I lost my DSi anyway, but man do I miss it. I now art a lot on paper and am working on a special website for my art work. I will try to post a link about it sometime when its finished. 

~Crackerz33

Some things happened recently...

I found out my grandma had to go to the hospital for cancer. Nobody told me the type, but it a tumor. The infection spreads throughout her organs, so it's internal. I saw her monday night, and she was very calm about it. I worry about her constantly. 

To make things worse, my boyfriend and I started arguing about our relationship and I heard him cry for the first time. It was heartbreaking to listen to him on the other end of the phone. I tried to comfort him. I despratly asked my mom to drive me to his house, offering to pay for gas, but as expected she said no. I was just being dramatic, or just tired. I think I was acting so coldly because I forgotten to take my medicine again. I hope things get better, I know they will. Thanks for reading I guess... bye. 

~Crackerz33

My Week/Weekend in One Post

Oh wow, so much has seemed to happen. Not really... but, well, my mom has just returned from the hospital last wednesday and is slowly getting better. Her pain was something to get used to and the consistity of havening to do everything (since she cannot lift anything for 6 weeks since the surgery) has been difficult, even for her. I have gotten myself into a show I will never regret watching *cough, cough* Steven Universe and I'm super excited for 51!

I found out that my favorite breakfast food is called a Jamwich and for some reason I'm always happy to eat one. Today, at breakfast I was super rebellious and took more food than I was allowed. And no, it's not a crime, but it made me feel oddly great.

I've been having some difficulties with my friends, family, and boyfriend. It's as if I have no time for anyone. I'm sorry if I take too long with a lot of things and what not, but I won't let you down! I hope... uh.. bye?

~Crackerz33

So much busy this weekend....

So there are plenty of things I did today or yesterday, since it's like 12 right now. I went to some banquette and we ate a whole lot of food (no, duh). I usually never eat all my food when I go places, but for the first time I got just the right amount, and room for dessert!!! Yes, this is a success for me! Another success is I finished my 20 fan MV on sudomemo a few minutes ago! I am super proud of it, and I will post it on Sudomemo later today in the morning, maybe. I also need to continue my RP's, so if you guys see this, I'll try to post by tomorrow (later today, since it's 12:30). This gets confusing.... I'm heading out, then. Night/morning!!!

~Crackerz33

Something I think you should know....

Rule #1, I would never leave sudomemo without informing you guys that I'm leaving. If I'm ever gone for a long time, look on here and I will probably have a post telling what's going on, or just assume that I'm busy, grounded, or dead. The last one actually worries me a bit, so let's not think of that one. ; ^ ;) Anyway, I felt the need to do this at this time. Sorry if you find this to be dumb, it just felt important is all. Thanks for taking time to read this.

~Crackerz33

A lot has happened!!

Oh gosh! Where do I begin? I got 2 new subscibers and thanks for that!! I've been feeling super happy for this past week, and I'm ungrounded!!! Even though good things happened, many bad things came afterward. I don't really know how to feel. My boyfriend's sister is leaving the state with her father. I don't know if she'll ever comeback, hopefully she'll be back during the summer. A lot of people were upset, including my boyfriend--at least for awhile. He eventually gave in to it and accepted it. I feel sad for them, but as the situation went, I think it's for best. I've been starting to feel guilt and sadness even though I have completely nothing to do with any of it. I've also been struggling to handle my friends' rude name calling. I mean, it's all fine and dandy, but I'm starting to feel down.

Also, I might be slower with my flipnotes... I've been going through some stress and I need to get my work done, but sudomemo's been distracting me. Don't get me wrong, sudomemo gave me life, but I need to be back in the real world every once in awhile. Wish me luck during this complicated time!

~Crackerz33